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The recent release of “Dawn of the Planet of the Apes" reminded me of one of my favorite ape vs. man films – this 1932 video that shows a baby chimpanzee and a baby human undergoing the same basic psychological tests.
Its gets weirder – the human baby (Donald) and the chimpanzee baby (Gua) were both raised as humans by their biological/adopted father Winthrop Niles Kellogg. Kellogg was a comparative psychologist fascinated by the interplay between nature and nurture, and he devised a fascinating (and questionably ethical) experiment to study it:
Suppose an anthropoid were taken into a typical human family at the day of birth and reared as a child. Suppose he were fed upon a bottle, clothed, washed, bathed, fondled, and given a characteristically human environment; that he were spoken to like the human infant from the moment of parturition; that he had an adopted human mother and an adopted human father.
First, Kellogg had to convince his pregnant wife he wasn’t crazy:
…the enthusiasm of one of us met with so much resistance from the other that it appeared likely we could never come to an agreement upon whether or not we should even attempt such an undertaking.
She apparently gave in, because Donald and Gua were raised, for nine months, as brother and sister. Much like Caesar in the “Planet of the Apes” movies, Gua developed faster than her “brother,” and often outperformed him in tasks. But she soon hit a cognitive wall, and the experiment came to an end. (Probably for the best, as Donald had begun to speak chimpanzee.)
Evening dress by Charles James, 1952 (via)
My future wedding dress
My Weakness is My Strength.
I don’t think much of anyone likes being vulnerable.
Speaking for myself however, I am quite accustomed to it.
But let me make something clear.
Being gender variant, non-binary, queer
or even the fact that I was born with a traditional “male” body type
but wear many traditional “female” fashions such as the outfit above…..
none of these things are what make me vulnerable.
I am vulnerable because I am openly & wholeheartedly myself.
I know that through a simple tumblr post, it might seem as if I make being yourself oh so easy. The truth is that I pay a very high price for my uncompromised freedom of expression.
Everything from my personal safety to the chance at a successful career is compromised by my decision to follow my heart, instead of following the crowd. However, this is really only the beginning of my sacrifice.
As my blog progresses and the number of individuals that are inspired by my personal freedom continues to grow, I must really think about the sacrifices I have had to make and will have to make in order to be so… free.
That is the purpose of this blog post.
To make everyone aware that personal freedom is as much of a blessing as it is a curse.
I will forever and always aspire to inspire the individual in humanity by being an example of a true individual. But I am choosing to also be transparent of the hardships that come along with the great adventures and satisfaction of my personal freedom. I feel it is the right thing to do, for by my mother, my teachers and my idols I was blindly taught to always be myself, but no one cared to mention the cost I would have to pay or the sacrifice I would be required to make.
I do not want to blindly lead the people who look up to me.
I want to inspire a kind of personal freedom that is not only fabulous,
But strong, courageous, truthful & positively life changing.
I worked extra hard on this photo set because I wanted it to catch the attention of all the amazing followers I have out there.
I love and appreciate all of you so much. Your messages and comments are the only thing that saves me from giving up because its easy to give up on myself, but I could never, ever give up on all of you.